i cant see out my eyes no more.

caught in a sick vendetta, worse for i know it well enough. 

 ME AND CHEA ARE GOING SHOPPING. 
and my head hurts. 
BUT WERE GOING SHOPPING. :3

so yea, catch you kids later. ~

I bet you wouldnt.

I bet I would. you said, 

but you dont catch me catching you, 

and i'll tell you a million times 

your better than you think. 

and you'll tell me a million times 

for every star in the sky 

that matches your eyes.

I'll give you one kiss more. ~

And it started raining when i came out the shower.

And maybe thats because it was raining all the rain away and then the grass would be green and all the rain would be gone. 

And maybe its just going to rain tommorow, as well. and everything wil be soaked.

So i havent reached the point, the pinachle coz hell, there isnt one. but this weekend im sorting my life out a little bit and maybe things will get better before they get a whole lot better. 

ANYWAY. i thought in celebration of me being able to run out of physics saying, sir, do you nid if i go and throw up please? im linking some pretty things ive found coz everyone needs pretty. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwX7uEiEWx4

http://www.urbanoutfitters.co.uk/finger-tache/invt/5552455650000/&bklist=icat,5,shop,home,housecollections,stockingfillers

http://www.cathkidston.co.uk/p-15245-cath-kidston-candy-flowers-roberts-radio.aspx

Be merry. ~

My Christmas Wish.

and when im with you, im safe, and when im with you, 

  

its like that feeling you get when its christmas. 

Thats the only way to explain it. 

When im with you, hand on heart, you make me feel like i do once a year, on christmas. 

without presents, 

without crackers which i love and roast which i adore, 

without funny family and spilt wine, 

you make me feel like christmas. 

And boy, youve stitched shives down my spine. 

My heart leaps and melts and implodes and explodes and buzzes like an electric shock 

all-at-the-same-time.

this isnt even a story book, not even exaggerating for a interesting plot line 

( although this is one hell of an interesting plot line all the same )

tell me how. maybe i can bottle it, and we'll make a fortune. 

You make everything a little bit better right now. 

Today was the best car journey of my life. 

( thats saying something. )

I wish you upon everyone. Boy, 

if i could give one of you to everyone on earth with an honest smile on thier face for christmas, 

oh boy, i'd do it, thrice over. 

I hope with an honest heart and a prayer to god
you all get one.  ~

nothing will work anymore

 picture from my mate doyle. <3

oh those eyes. I am collecting;

sunday afternoons, wine gums. 

you should see the way you look at me. 

i want to show you fireworks, 

i want to say everything ive ever wanted to say allatonce. 

i want to stop forgetting everything that comes into my head. 

im jumbled like a flea market, 

im a charity shop full of things waiting to be painted, 

waiting to be perfect, 

waiting for you. 

and right now its hard. because everythings happening and lord, its so hard ive got to keep running because as soon as i stop i swear, i swear i'll collapse under it all, im flailing, as soon as i stop going forward it will drown me. 

and i can still see the thrawling looming bonnet of that black suv suddenly there in my perfieral vision like a heart attack, still seeing my sholder bag slam thunk into the front of it, so close to being the slam snap of my legs. Your hands are still going through my hair, 

and im falling, 

im just praying that im going to learn to fly 

before i hit the ground. 

So i nearly got hit by a car and everythings alittle busy and crazy right now and its hard to stay on top of all the ing responsiblity. big word. 

so i'll finish the ten days, i will, i just cant right now. 

I'm sorry, truely, truely, sorry. ~

I'd catch it in a jam jar, and keep it in my room.

Boom.

They shoot in to the air like stars, explode and then fade. You're surrounded by 'oohs' and 'aahs' and the smell of hot dogs. I'm dressed in muddy boots and a huge khaki parka jacket, but still shivering; breathing out steam like a dragon. So, yeah. I thought i hated it, but i love this time of year. It's the time of year when your eyeliner smudges and your nose is red and your toes are froze. When the radiators are on full blast and you can get away with wearing hoodies, and your hair smells like smoke (and that new shampoo my mum bought).

+ i said i'd stop doing posts like these, because Abigail is better, and that i'd write about fashion and shoes. 

But today was just

beautiful.

Day II

 Much use they were. still, it was a reason to thank thunder storms. 

and she watched her letter box everyday for that paper bird. 

1. I love fire, flames, watching things burn. Im not a pyro dont worry, and i hatehatehate smoking, but always borrow thier lighters, just to watch the flames. 

2. Im so so in love that. well, there arent really words for how much i love that boy. 

3. In my life, ive had it pretty good. But ive got so used to constant bullying/general rubbish from people that things will hurt, but in a few minuteshoursdays it wont matter to me anymore. 

4. I only cry if i hurt someone else. If im leaving a school i loved, if someone close to me suddenly hated me, i wouldnt cry. not at all. But if they hated me because i did something to them,

i'd ball my eyes out. 

5. I draw all over my hands, pretty much daily. 

6. I dont like milk. Or much cheese. or fizzy drinks. 

7. I really really want to be one of those small skinny girls that everyone adores, i dont like being tall. well, i'd also love to be as cool as chea but thats never gonna happen. 

8. like bright tights, crumpets, good friends and netball, i love sneakers but only have one pair. I love alot things, including avril lavinge and drew barrymore, but never listen to her songs or watch her films. I'd love to actually sort my life out and fill it with things i love ( like scrubs ) but i just never get the time.

9. When i was young,
i used to sleep naked.